Tuesday, November 29, 2011

At the end of the day, my act of happiness can no longer be performed.
Nor do you text me good morning , good night, sweet dreams, and call me just to hear my voice. You don't miss me. No, I mean nothing to you
And you no longer spend your nights on the phone with me, making me speechless, giggle, and cheeks hurt from smiling.
But now it's her you call baby, babe, babygirl, sweetie, princess, sweetheart, and WHATEVER else you used to call me.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Some people don't appreciate everything you do, and some even take advantage of it.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Contradiction

I don't Blog with Post Titles...
I slept from 5am-11am, then took a nap from 6pm-11pm...
It is now 1:30am, so I guess I should sleep...

Rihanna - We Found Love ft. Calvin Harris (AHMIR parody)


One Direction - What Makes You Beautiful

WHY CAN'T I FIND ONE DIRECTION TO ADD TO MY PANDORA?!?
I ♥ that UK boy band!!!
Driver's Ed. is going to be soo boring -.-" ...
Watching my dog fall asleep Lol <3
THIS BOY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE.
Let me play the lead role in your wildest dreams. (;
I'm just gonna blog now.
If I run out of breath, would you fill up my lungs...?

Friday, November 25, 2011

I'll have my best friend to keep my company ♥
I highly doubt he'll call or text me anyway.
I suppose the the day is not over quite yet.
He never text me today.
Blah, these online quizzes aren't allowing me to access them -.-" ...
All jokes aside, it really is 69 degrees outside O.o ...
It's 69 degrees outside (; Lmao. Let me stop...
If they don't know, then I know...
You're as good as it gets. ♥
How do you know when to let go...
and throw away everything that you were fighting for?
Baby, it starts with me. ♥
Matt Palmer ♥
I hate what she did to you. Now I'm paying the price.
I hate mistyped messages / posts ._.
It's like you're putting up all your guards up, and I'm putting all of mine down.
No way am I Tweeting a lot today. He should text me whenever he decides to care.
I only remember a few things, though. Like that text you sent me... It meant so much.
I had a dream about you last night.
What's he thinking, right at this moment? Is he thinking of me? If not, when he does think of me, what does he think?
No, bitch.
I miss everything that we were before last weekend happened.
Why can't he just text me? Does he not miss me?
I'm seriously sitting here pouting... 
I wish you would call me or something... I really miss you.
Why is there sugar in milk? o.o...
... He doesn't know my Blogger... right?
Does he think I'm going to text him first? 'Cause I'm tired of being the one the puts in the most effort, or any effort at all it seems...
I wish I knew what he was thinking.
Why hasn't he texted me? ):
I love highlighters O.o 
I swear, I'm here to stay. ♥
I look up at the stars...
They laugh at me.
Maybe this is love... ♥
Now I look back on the time that we spent and I see it in my mind, playing over and over again...
I'm not going to tweet, because he'll see them...

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

I didn't get a call tonight, either...
Almost like magic...
It's like he just forgot about me... In a snap.
He doesn't know what he's doing to me.
Burn Notice (:
There's no way anyone could find my Blogger, unless they have my gmail.
Please tell me you still care...
I just hope you're not pushing yourself away from me emotionally...
I say I'm giving up, but I know I'm not.
It's been 3 hours. I KNOW the movie is over, he just won't text me.
I just broke my phone's screen...
You're going to lose me.
You don't even realize it...
Whatever, fuck this. 
You think you're making a wise decision, that it'll bring us together in the long run...
But it's going to drive us apart, farther than you thought possible...
I forgot what we're fighting for.
I just need someone to talk to, to pour my heart out into...
Maybe I need a shrink.
I'm going to smile anyway.
You're too beautiful too cry.
Either you care, or not. Show it.
I just don't get it. 
You can't blame me.
Is it my fault?
Bitch, kick rocks.
That one person no one likes, and has no idea why. 
The more I get to know you, the more I realize how much I don't know you.
I always think about how I've hurt people, and think some more on how much they deserved it. 
-@Aspenittaa on Twitter
I'm trying so hard...
Don't underestimate me.
Best love's when you're tipsy (;
You're an oddball.
I'd rather go blind than to see me without you.

The Dark Knight Rises Official Trailer [HD]

I don't want something perfect I want something real. Something between the two of us, something we both feel.
That's the way, uh-huh, uh-huh, I like it (:
Am I not enough for you?
I feel like he just wants freedom to enjoy other girls than me.
You're playing it cool... A little TOO cool...
I miss when you actually attempted to talk to me, because you wanted to.
It's 3:21! d:
Screw my life, I went over my Blogging limit last night -.-" ...
I want a cupcake ):
Black Swan is AMAZING.
Humans are vulnerable, because they are capable of being hurt.
Waking up after 10 <<<

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

I'm so easily amused Lolol
"You're entertaining. Many other things, too."
"Thank you (: I think... Lol"
"It was a compliment, referring to there being so many good things about you I can't even list 'em."
You want me in your life? Put me there. I shouldn't have to fight for a spot.
-@iSpeakFemale on Twitter
Oh, look... you replied just as fast. It's not just me.
Whatever.
I didn't mean to reply that fast -.-" Ah, shi...
I'm not tripping. Nope, I'm not.
You obviously don't care as much as you claim you do if you forget to text me back or just didn't want to...
I don't even know what to think. Wtheck.
You didn't text me back for 2 hours, but when I send another text after you DON'T reply to me, you text back in 2 minutes?!?
Are you fucking serious?
If he does't reply, I'm not texting him good night or at all tomorrow. Unless he texts me first.

"Peacock spider"

Peacock spiders are kind of cute (:
WHY AM I WATCHING SPIDER VIDEOS?!?

Clever dog plays fetch with himself

Why won't he text me back? x.x ...
I don't know, but I'm suddenly not as calm as I was earlier...
Maybe he's eating...
Name your child Hurricane.
I think I'm a Directioner...
This song sucks, 'cause it doesn't change. Too many parts all sound the same... LOL #Ahmir

Mindless Behavior - Girls Talkin' Bout

I'm in love with Conor Maynard ♥
I should really do my homework and read this chapter...
I wouldn't admit this to you, but you've been driving me crazy...
Idk, I just know... You know?
I don't know if defending you is a good thing or bad thing...
I waited all morning and day for this text. You can wait just a LITTLE.
I can't decide whether to be mad that you texted me so late today or to be happy that you texted me at all -______-
Why am I so weak?
It's almost as if something inside of him rejected me, and now he just doesn't want me. Idk... I'm hoping it's just me.
It's like he doesn't care enough to even check up on me..
I hope he never finds my Blogger. There's no water he could, anyway.... Right?
I'm in need of #Oomf...
If you're at rock bottom, the only place else you can go is up.

I could fall in love with you if you were here... easily.
Life's too short to dwell on all that's wrong.
You don't know you're beautiful...
I'm still going to smile (:
This is your version of being just friends?
...I feel like we're strangers.
Keeping myself busy so I'm not tempted to text him.
I'm scared to death that this might drive us apart...
And I'm scared that you not scared at all...
Pooey.
Why hasn't he texted me...? ):
HAHAHAHAH #Oomf on Twitter makes me laugh xD
Love me...

ADMIT IT.
You're waiting for something that won't happen.
I got you baby, as long as you got me. Just know it's gonna get harder, before it gets easy. ♥

You wanna play around instead of settle down, but now you lookin' to be cuffed, and everyone you talk to just tryn'a fuck ?
I forgot that I need to get my VOE for Driver's Ed.

Monday, November 21, 2011

I really hope he texts me early tomorrow...
"Wanna know why I've been stressing you? Because I've been getting less of you. Its like everyone else gets the best of you & I just get the rest of you." -Alexis W. (http://m.tmi.me/ix2jL)
I will officially be Blogging instead of Tweeting.
I just want you for my very own; more than you will ever know.
I don't know where I stand with you. And I don't know what I mean to you. All I know is every time I think of you, I want to be with you.
I could have been cuffed...
I feel like I just got dropped. 
You didn't reply to me, OR call me, like you used to every night...
I'll stop what I'm doing and stare at this phone to wait on your call tonight...
Why am I so damn impulsive?!
My tummy hurts ):
You even admitted it. You know what you said, and you remember saying it.
Don't underestimate me. I will remember what you say, and I will use your own words against you. 
I pulled the "Remember when you..." line. Trapped much?
Watch this.
You're not going to know what to say to me after I say this.
Watch him take forever to reply just because I sent that.
O.
The value of nothing is everything.
I'm getting a kick out of this.
I'm so mad..
I woke you up with a call, and I don't even get a TEXT back?!?! TF I LOOK LIKE?!?!?
I even CALLED you this morning to hear your voice!!!!
My heart hasn't been calm for the past 2 hours...
I say this a lot, but I'm glad no one has my Blogspot.
I'm not going to do my hw. I can't think about anything besides him, and I'm going insane.
I think I want to call Joseph about all of this...
Why doesn't he want to text me??
Lol Barney's on.
I know I'm not heartbroken, but... Ugh.
I feel heartbroken.
You're pushing me away, claiming that you aren't.
You sleep alot.
I don't feel like texting one other than the person that has my heart.
My mom is flipping annoying, and it is too early for this. TH.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Being neglected <<<
Humidity <<<
I guess that I'm a little bit in love with you. 
I'd rather lose you than myself.
I don't I believe you?
I feel like it's my fault...
I want to cry my heart out.
There ain't no way in hell that I can be just friends with you...
I'm dying inside, and you don't even see it.
The "Kim Charm"? LOL.
You made me weak.
But that doesn't mean I'll push you away or give up. 
I'm going to give him his space.
I refuse to constantly be on his tip. 
You don't know what you're doing to me...
They say the hardest decision is to know when to give up or try harder... and I'm trying harder, for you. 
I'm blogging, because I don't want you to see it if I Tweet. 
This has been the longest hour I've ever experienced in my life.
You told me to never push you away, but now I believe that you're the one pushing ME away.
I know myself, and I'm NOT in love.
I don't know why this is so hard, I'm not in love with you.
I flipping want to cry.
I don't deserve your love.
I feel like I just went through a break up and I wasn't even in a relationship.
Ugh.
I will forever be thankful for my best friend for being born and being in my life.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

I don't think you understand how hard it is to NOT push you away when it's a natural instinct to me.
How ironic would it be if he searched me down and is reading ALL my blog posts at this moment? #Impossible
I'm so glad no one has my Blogspot.
I don't even want to wake up tomorrow. I want to sleep, sleep, and SLEEP.
I can't believe I let him have so much power over me.
HORRIBLE TIMING <<<
NO.
I wonder if he'll call me tonight.
I guess I could act like I'm okay.
I'm not even going to text you until you text me. And even then, I'll let you wait for my reply.
If I delete every message you've sent me, I'm trying to let you go.
I can't believe I let you see me cry.
I'm just disappointed.
No, I'm not mad.
I constantly ask for pain, without realizing it until afterwards.
He made me cry on our first date. Wtf.
I gave him the power to hurt me. How STUPID of me to trust him.
I'm really about to not tweet in a long time.
This is why I don't open up to people.

Monday, November 14, 2011

I don't like Adele. I hope she continues to be successful with her music for herself and fans, but I'm not buying or listening to her.
Gosh, you give me butterflies <3

Sunday, November 6, 2011

I'm a lowkey freak, but I'm not a hoe, nor am I foolish. We'd have to be officially dating for a LONG time!
He must think I'm easy or something.